The Family Edit

by Juliana Gray

Won’t it be fun, they said, when Grandmother
comes to stay with us? They tidied up

the downstairs study where Whiskers’s kittens were born,
and Dad reinforced the sagging daybed

with a sheet of chipboard. Grandmother unpacked
her bag—just one, containing little—and yes,

it was fun, her waiting to hug me when I came home
from school, her reading family recipes

through cats’ eye glasses hung on a slender chain,
she and my parents talking about something

that made them crush out their cigarettes
whenever I entered the room. Her husband called,

but she wouldn’t speak to him. He sent flowers.
I can’t remember if she threw them out.

In true crime documentaries, the victim’s
family is interviewed, then given a choice:

whether to receive a standard copy
or what is called the family edit, the story

without graphic reenactments, without
violent details, without screams and blood,

the slo-mo replay of intimate pain.
Grandmother went home, my parents said, to fetch

her things. Her husband was angry. He had a gun.
Her casket was closed, they said, as if a lid

meant done, as if erasure didn’t tell
its own story, its emptiness a scar.


Juliana Gray’s third poetry collection, Honeymoon Palsy, was published by Measure Press in 2017. Recent poems have appeared in or are forthcoming from The Shore, River Heron Review, Fatal Flaw, and elsewhere. An Alabama native, she lives in western New York and teaches at Alfred University.