They say you don’t know any better
when everyone else around you
lives the same way, in trailers.
I was just a kid, but I knew
the floor shouldn’t move
when you walk down the hallway
and the whole house rock side to side.
One we lived in for awhile
wasn’t any more than thirty feet long.
My parents envied neighbors in double wides.
I knew it meant a lack of ambition.
So I never tried,
convinced myself that was the way.
Because if you want something it only
leads to disappointment. Later I read
Desire is the source of all sorrow
in some Buddhist text.
My parents didn’t know
Buddha from boo.
Desire is the source of all sorrow.
You can take that both ways.
I never tried until the white
was in my cheek
and it was too late.
But that was the way
life panned out.